Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day.
You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to
your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten
over and over and over. You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them
all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours
later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don’t answer, so he
walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom this.
Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She
grabs the paper in your hand and reads it Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so
confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy won’t wake up.”
Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to
her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and
he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to
his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other,
crying. The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells
everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone
blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean
popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy that
used to tease you and call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never
telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex friend, the one that you told
everything to, that broke up with you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks down and
starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too,
wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could
have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She’s in shock.
She can’t believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never
thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. She can’t cry, she
can’t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks
to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days
later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright
smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder
to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you,
there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t know you
killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him,
a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him.
Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they
start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for
days. It’s two years later. The whole school talks to a counselor/ therapist at
least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating
disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex friend doesn’t know how to love anymore and just sleeps around
with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to
kill herself. She didn’t succeed like you did, but she tried… your brother? He
finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night,
he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents?
Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself
from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed
all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t
just affect you. They affect everyone. Don’t end your life, you have so much to
live for. Things can’t get better if you give up. Me, Adhi Sharma am here for u
absolutely forever….
I am there to care
I am there to care
